Outcome of Surgery...and... Why I Wear My Baby!

It's been a seriously busy year for us! The latest stop...second surgery. Surgery to re-connect my husband's intestines. No, it doesn't sound pretty but... that's what it is. He has been envisioning the possibility of this day since the day he found out he would have to wear a bag to save his life.... 

He underwent surgery to re-connect and the "procedure" was successful. What does that mean? It means the surgeon did exactly what needed to be done and on her end, everything went fine. His surgeon is amazing. Not only is she talented BUT she actually cares about her patients and it shows. She remembers us at every visit and visits with Emma. She gave birth to a baby girl a few weeks before I did so we exchange pics of our babies and she tells me how glad she is that John is doing so well. I can't tell you how rare that is and how grateful I am for her. She is an angel in my eyes. 

So at this point, John heals and we see how things go. We make sure his body doesn't reject the re connection and go from there. So far things look really good! My husband seems like a fighter! His body seems to heal fast. So we are very hopeful!

In the meantime, my little online boutique is picking up business so I have been super busy personally AND career wise! John can't really help with the littles right now so I have to do all I can to manage this circus all by myself. Luckily, Emma likes to be worn!

This is a BOBA WRAP. Emma just LOVES IT. I bought it from Target. Anytime I need to get work done and she is fussy I put my laptop on one of my surfaces that's high enough for me to stand with Emma in the wrap so I can sway back and forth as I need to and work at the same time! It works like a charm. She loves falling asleep in this thing. I can work and tend to her needs at the same time so it's a WIN/WIN!

Work done. Emma is happy! Moving on to the next task!

I want to thank everyone for the prayers and well wishes! It means the world to us! We have had so much "stuff" happening to us and having people sending us good vibes, prayers, and wishing us the best has kept us going! Having a big family is full of it's fair share of obstacles. Having a great support system is key. Whether you know it or not, YOU are part of that and we love you for it!!

Here's the link to my online store in case you haven't checked it out yet!

My online store

Love to you all!

Stacey

Another Surgery Looms...

Friends, my husband is having surgery AGAIN. This time we are hoping he can re-connect his bowels and not have to have a colostomy any longer. We won't know for sure what the outcome is until surgery is completed. I have faith in GOD that all will be successful.

I cannot even begin to tell you what a mental toll having a colostomy has taken on John. He used to tease me all the time about how "handsome he is" and to be honest, he tended to walk on the arrogant side. Since surgery I have heard things come out of his mouth that just broke my heart. I can't tell you how many times he has told me how "ugly" and "disgusting" he thinks he is. He refers to himself as "Frankenstein" quite frequently and continually verbalizes his disgust because he thinks he "smells bad". He has told me several times he would understand if I left him because of his condition. Often saying "I don't know how you could love me like this". 

It kills me to hear him say these things. If he could only see in to my soul. I knew the commitment I was making when I married him. His medical condition doesn't change a thing for me. For him, I will be glad when/if they can reconnect him. I don't want to see him struggle anymore!

Since John got his colostomy I have joined some Facebook Support Groups on the subject to get advice when I needed it and I was SHOCKED at some of the things I heard. People being left and divorced because they had to get some sort of Ostomy. All kinds of prejudice. All kinds of judgement. All kinds of rude comments. It was eye opening and heart breaking at the same time. I will always understand and relate to what these people are put through because of what happened to my husband. I have "met" some amazing people in these groups and anyone that would refuse to get to know them because of a medical condition they can't help to have is seriously missing out!

Please send well wishes, prayers, good vibes, positive energy our way!! Surgery is next week and John is nervous.... 

His kids adore him, I adore him and we just want surgery to go in accordance with GOD's plan! Thank you for being there for our family during this difficult journey!! We love you friends!!

Stacey